Stuff about me.

Short introduction

Hello, I'm Lumi. I'm 18

I use Linux (EndeavourOS).

From stuff I do: Learning drawing (furries), electronic repair (e.g. Nintendo New 3DS XL, computers, laptops), general computer stuff, a bit of gaming and a lot of information gathering, which mostly comes down to me following some internet rabbit holes or reading stuff. The more info I gather, the more topics I can discuss, and that means more talking!

I really want to get into a lot of stuff, but mainly into programming, game dev, music making, reverse engineering, hacking (ethical dw)

I need many explanations, please be patient, I'm autistic. I tend to write a lot sometimes.

My communication skills leave a lot to be said, more onto that later.

Some interests

    list (TBD)
  • books
  • games
  • music
  • computers

transparency

aka. how interacting with me will probably look like. Based on experience

Sometimes I ask myself about what am I even doing. So onto the thing: My sole reason to learning to draw was, and probably still is, to meet people. Over time I came to a realisation that I'm unable to make new friends, and if I somehow did, they withered away. So now it is like that: draw, get mutuals, mutuals may start something that I can comment on, or maybe a gaming event etc.. My main theory as to why is the way I talk: calm, emotionless tone; unable to give actual praise, limited reactions or being unable to react. I'm easily confused by the actions or words of others. Of course, I'm not stopping you, try if you want, I don't bite. Heck, I would be happy if you tried, but keeping a friendship actually going without withering will be hard/impossible (based on experience). Me approaching people and requesting to do more activities together or something like that is extremely unlikely. You will most probably see me just giving frequent likes, rare comments, or very rarely some kind words if I find it needed. And since I can talk a lot, the kind words will be able to span in thousands of characters once I finish. Already had happend a couple of times. If you tell me something bad/sad that had happened to you or someone etc., it may take me a bit to respond, and it will be the most dry sounding response ever. I am unable to find a response that fits my "sounds good" feeling.

Over time I found myself unable to even reach out to people. I've been lowering my discord activity too, as I can't find a place where I understand the people who are talking, nor a place where I feel understood. Wandering around for a place of my own - just some corner of the internet, with a small amount of actually understandable people. Me talking on discord servers anywhere is a rather rare event. Or I was summoned by something, mostly tech stuff, or if I'm pinged.
I kind of gave up on forcing myself to try and talk. It never brought anything good.

If it happens that I'm leaving many comments, be it on social media or youtube, that means that I'm attempting to approach. Sounds cringe, but it's how I work. Even if I don't like the way that I work.
If you happen to approach me, there are two outcomes: if I know you, I'm not/lowly/moderately alerted; if we don't know each other, I'm hostile/high-alert.

well then, see you all when I start drawing something good enough to meet good people.